pain and hate

Numb

Bleeding now i’m
Crying out i’m
Falling down and i’m
Feeling nothing like
Laughing now i’m
Stopping now i’m
Reaching out and i’m
Feeling nothing

Yeah, you have created a rift within me
Now there have been several complications
That have left me feeling nothing
I might say, you were wrong to take it from me
Left me feeling nothing

Crawling now i’m
Beaten down i’m
Tortured now and i’m
Feeling nothing like
Hunting now i’m
Stalking now i’m
Reaching out and i’m
Killing nothing

I can feel you ripping and teaching
Feeding and growing inside of me
I want this, more than you know
I need this, give it back to me

pain

Pain-pain-pain

Pain is making me insane
Pain in my dreams pain during the day.. does it ever go away.
Pain that cant be erased in time or softened by a love in your life.
Pain that tears me apart in many ways yet im still alive.
Pain that ruins your life day by day week by week and it doesnt
seem to dissapear.
Pain that cant be described but maybe you will experience later
in your life.
Pain thats caused by others yet you have to fight.
Pain that might last untill the end of your life.
Pain has clamed many lifes yet more will come.. cause I dont
know how much longer I can hold on.
Pain has killed dreams of what I wanted to be come and the
pain is just going on.. and on..
Pain of the cuts in my arms are making me scared... what
will I become if I live for another year...
So this question I ask myself day by day.. should I give in or
try to get on.

Jeremy de Graaf